shake the disease

i just want to get with you and make the pain go away.

everyday i wish i was an image, an icon, a painting.
i wish i was Dorian Grey, at least for a while...
or something like a vampire...

If I had to choose between that and the Matrix, I choose the Matrix.

is the suffering really necesary?!

hold me, like you'll never let me go.


they say: what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger.
and i want a healing factor


i have vanished
and i miss myself...

i wanna laugh again
i wanna be 4 again...
i want a perfect body.


fuck fuck fuck fuck
i know i'm not helping
i know i only make it worst
and i'm sorry
i'm sorry for everything
everything i said, everything i've done, everything.

do you love me?
because...
these days, i've been hating myself...
or at least what i became, this is not me,this is not me,this is not me,this is not me,this is not me,this is not me, this is not me!

tell me that i'm alright, and everything is alright.
i'm tired of trying to cry, i mean i need to, but tears wont come out.

'til things are brighter...

"he said oh yes you can just hold my hand i think that it will help.
so i sat whit him a while and then asked him how he felt..
he said i think i'm cured, no, in fact i'm sure of it. thank you stranger, for therapeutic smile"


i'm sorry. seems thats the only thing i can say these days :S
and it sucks.